25th of December a date that uses to bring so much joy. Yet here I am, teary eyed and dreading the day even though I have my rainbow to see open her gifts . There is a void in the whole day , Oliver isnt here and by all our rainbows milestones and actions we … Continue reading Xmas day struggles of an Angel Dad
As Christmas is fast approching and the pressure of celebrating Christmas is mounting, I want to take a moment to assure you that you are not alone in feeling the way you are. One thing us angel dads understand is the pressure from society into just "manning up" and getting on with it. The very … Continue reading The Holiday struggles of an Angel Dad.
Never would be the answer With this week been baby loss awareness week ,its a good week to see other people sharing their story's and experiences. One thing this has sadly highlighted for me is how many Angel mums feel like they are frauds because they lost early on and that they did not get … Continue reading When is a loss not a loss?
The topic of this blog will be based on my experiences of having a rainbow baby. There is one thing almost guaranteed when you loose a child and that at some point someone will say something along the lines of " Your young you can try again."or" When are you trying … Continue reading Rainbow tears
My name is Scott McCluskey and I would like to give you a brief insight of my life, I had been with my partner for around 3 years before she fell pregnant, I was roughly 21 and she was 20 at 5 and a half months pregnant she started losing blood, so we … Continue reading I MISS MY BOY
Just like when you are in a accident and injure yourself you are left with scars , When you lose a child you are forever broken. Let me explain. When you lose a child your world stops, you lose countless years of watching your child grow up, you miss all the milestones that they would … Continue reading I am Broken, But that’s ok
I dont know if anyone will ever read this, im unsure if I actually want people too. This is just somewhere I thought I would jot down my idea’s and thoughts as an Angel Parent. Before I go any further, maybe it’s best to define what I mean when I say Angel Parent. In basic terms … Continue reading Lexi Jayne , gorgeous Angel butterfly
I remember when I found out I was pregnant, I was so shocked. I've always wanted to be a mum, we just did not think it would be that soon. It was the happiest moment of my life. We did a few home pregnancy tests and they came back negative so I was not hopeful. … Continue reading Oliver’s story . a Angel mams journey
On the 14th of June each year we have Oliver's birthday, followed the next day by his angelversary and a few days later fathers day. Now for those that know me I also have a nearly 4-year-old rainbow, In the midst of a day, I should be excited about it consumed with grief, anger which … Continue reading A Tide of Celebration, Sorrow and being an Angel Daddy on Fathers Day….
There any many organisations out there that do memory boxes for hospitals for children who have sadly passed. This blog will focus on a charity called 4Louis as this is the charity that supplied Oliver's Memory box, and my first real look into the world of child loss and support. Some of this blog will … Continue reading Memory Boxes: The first gentle hugs from strangers